Criminal Minds Episode "100"
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fabrisseUnder the cut are spoilers. This is not, strictly speaking, episode discussion; this is Fabi's very personal reactions to a show that hit a trigger or two.
I come from a military family. We, my sister and I, didn't have code words, but it would not surprise me if my parents did, at least while we were in Vietnam, Britain, and Belgium.
This got to me on several levels. Thomas Gibson's portrayal of Hotch is mentally very similar to how my father was until about 1975. At that point, after he got back from his third tour in Vietnam and I was nearly fourteen, he started talking to me about his work -- where it wasn't classified -- and about the family dynamics. Please believe me when I say, I am in many ways who Jack Hotchner could become.
What devastated me, what makes me want to laugh because for some reason it's always my first reaction to both fear and death, was the look on Hotch's face as he was beating Foyet to death. Because I have seen that look on my mother's face when she was beating me.
I love the character of Hotch. I hope I can continue to, but I want to gag thinking of that look.
I'm 48 years old. My mother hasn't hit me in 13 years. She's 76 and I outweigh her. But she still terrifies me sometimes.
On the plus side of the episode, I saw two parents who know how to plan for the future protecting their child at all costs. Haley knew she was going to die and she accepted it so her son wouldn't hear her terror. That's the woman I wanted in seasons 2-4. That's an FBI spouse.
I come from a military family. We, my sister and I, didn't have code words, but it would not surprise me if my parents did, at least while we were in Vietnam, Britain, and Belgium.
This got to me on several levels. Thomas Gibson's portrayal of Hotch is mentally very similar to how my father was until about 1975. At that point, after he got back from his third tour in Vietnam and I was nearly fourteen, he started talking to me about his work -- where it wasn't classified -- and about the family dynamics. Please believe me when I say, I am in many ways who Jack Hotchner could become.
What devastated me, what makes me want to laugh because for some reason it's always my first reaction to both fear and death, was the look on Hotch's face as he was beating Foyet to death. Because I have seen that look on my mother's face when she was beating me.
I love the character of Hotch. I hope I can continue to, but I want to gag thinking of that look.
I'm 48 years old. My mother hasn't hit me in 13 years. She's 76 and I outweigh her. But she still terrifies me sometimes.
On the plus side of the episode, I saw two parents who know how to plan for the future protecting their child at all costs. Haley knew she was going to die and she accepted it so her son wouldn't hear her terror. That's the woman I wanted in seasons 2-4. That's an FBI spouse.
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Date: 2009-11-26 04:54 am (UTC)Haley really became the person she could have been at the end of her life. :(
*hugs*
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Date: 2009-11-26 05:02 am (UTC)Thanks for the hug. And Happy(?) Thanksgiving.
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Date: 2009-11-27 04:03 am (UTC)*hugs again* Happy Thanksgiving to you too!
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Date: 2009-11-26 04:15 pm (UTC)I'm so torn for Hotch. He knew what was going to happen the moment Foyet told him where he was.
I'm so sorry that scene gave you a bad association. :( *hugs*
I too recognized that look, but for me, it was the look and emotion I felt myself when protecting my sisters from nasty peers. I was cringing, wanting Hotch to stop but knowing why he couldn't until Morgan and Rossi pulled him off.
Now Hotch is a single dad. And I don't know how the hell he can raise Jack and stay at the BAU. One of those things has got to go. :(
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Date: 2009-11-27 03:34 am (UTC)Thanks for the hug.
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Date: 2009-11-27 05:37 am (UTC)