The coming year fills me with a stark terror so complete that I can't even study its dimensions. I think that whoever gains the nomination is going to be the most potent assassination target of all time; I am desperately worried for both of them as human beings. Me no likey asssassinations. Those are human beings, not just figureheads; I can't reduce a person only to the things they stand for, no matter who they are.
And it's been very difficult for me to watch the actions of Mrs. Clinton over the last several months, because the feminist in me refused to give up hope for the possible primacy of women's power in the United States. Unfortunately she is NOT the one we need, and I'm interested in seeing exactly how this will affect women's political power as individuals seeking election over the course of my lifetime. It's been a very fraught couple of months from me, as a woman, a Democrat, and a person of color; I just feel so incredibly ignorant, even if I am more politically informed and savvy (and interested) than 95% of the people I've ever met, but I know that my tendency to see people as "people" blinds me to the potential evil that they can do... and I feel really shitty about myself for it.
I am the dog that's been kicked by the boot of realpolitik entirely too much over the last eight years, and now I'm cringing underneath the front porch stairs. I don't know what to do about it; I have never felt so politically useless, ignored, and helpless in my life. Before the 2000 elections, I genuinely felt like my opinions, actions, and knowledge counted for something; now I know that that's not true.
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Date: 2008-03-29 11:18 pm (UTC)The coming year fills me with a stark terror so complete that I can't even study its dimensions. I think that whoever gains the nomination is going to be the most potent assassination target of all time; I am desperately worried for both of them as human beings. Me no likey asssassinations. Those are human beings, not just figureheads; I can't reduce a person only to the things they stand for, no matter who they are.
And it's been very difficult for me to watch the actions of Mrs. Clinton over the last several months, because the feminist in me refused to give up hope for the possible primacy of women's power in the United States. Unfortunately she is NOT the one we need, and I'm interested in seeing exactly how this will affect women's political power as individuals seeking election over the course of my lifetime. It's been a very fraught couple of months from me, as a woman, a Democrat, and a person of color; I just feel so incredibly ignorant, even if I am more politically informed and savvy (and interested) than 95% of the people I've ever met, but I know that my tendency to see people as "people" blinds me to the potential evil that they can do... and I feel really shitty about myself for it.
I am the dog that's been kicked by the boot of realpolitik entirely too much over the last eight years, and now I'm cringing underneath the front porch stairs. I don't know what to do about it; I have never felt so politically useless, ignored, and helpless in my life. Before the 2000 elections, I genuinely felt like my opinions, actions, and knowledge counted for something; now I know that that's not true.