Superstitions, etc.
Jun. 22nd, 2002 01:50 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
fabrisseEvery single on-line Tarot reading I've pulled for myself since last weekend has had nothing but doom and gloom. My mother's estimate of me as a fat, middle-aged, failure seems to have been sent out to the universe and ratified. Even my Magic 8 Ball seems stuck on its many equivalents of "Hell, no."
I want to do more, be more. But I lack energy and, worst of all, courage. And self-loathing doesn't help anything. Sometimes trying these superstitious things helps. A good reading or a "Yes" to some silly little question can make me feel like I can accomplish something, no matter how foul I feel. The downside is that no matter how pretty the day or how up I feel, a bad reading can rip the stuffing out and strew it over the yard.
Is the one worth the other? Can I stop? Should I?
I want to do more, be more. But I lack energy and, worst of all, courage. And self-loathing doesn't help anything. Sometimes trying these superstitious things helps. A good reading or a "Yes" to some silly little question can make me feel like I can accomplish something, no matter how foul I feel. The downside is that no matter how pretty the day or how up I feel, a bad reading can rip the stuffing out and strew it over the yard.
Is the one worth the other? Can I stop? Should I?
