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This has been a very difficult autumn. I'm depressed beyond words and the crying jags are starting. It hasn't been this bad since the switch clicked to depression nearly two years ago.

So much of it is sunlight. I try to make certain that I get some every day, but it's been particularly dark and damp this year. Unlike London or Brussels, I don't have a reason to be outside every day for twenty to forty minutes no matter the weather. It's so easy to stay inside staring at the white spaces on my computer.

A walk a day? Where to? Simple exercise would do alot for me. It's not like I don't have videos and DVDs to help me with it, but somehow the will is lacking.

That's a big part of it, I know. My body loves to move. Stretching is as sensual as eating or sex, but the first few days/weeks after not having done it in awhile is always fraught with pulled muscles, fatigue, weird moments of zero blood sugar while my metabolism adjusts.

And yet, light. Exercise. Sleep. How much of this pain would go away if I could get enough of three such simple things?